I've struggled getting here to my journal today. My sister's computer is a piece of work. Found out she had a trojan horse, so I promptly took care of that. I just recently added Firefox to her computer because Explorer is the worst possible browser ever. Why do they even continue to provide it? However, sometimes Firefox won't even load for me. I can't imagine what else is going on on this thing. I need to defrag it, too. Maybe tonight, as it will have to sit here without disturbance.

I had a pretty emotional therapy session today. I allowed myself to cry as I've been wanting to. Still, he noticed that I tried hard to stop from crying because I have this need to be strong throughout it all. He also pointed out that I fidget around when discussing certain things, which I am aware of myself. I wish I could rid of that, too. I want to be able to sit across from anyone with a straight posture and a positive outlook. A strong stance in general.

I suppose I'm here in Florida at the right time. October-November are excellent months for me HERE. It's beautiful outside, yet I'm disappointed because I cannot get a hold of my friends. I could use my friends at this moment. I speak only of two specific people whom I haven't seen in a while. I don't know how to reach them or if they are even aware of how badly I wish to speak with them. I want them to lend their ears because I admit, I'm struggling. Ahhh, busy lives. That's the issue. Or an excuse?

After some time I have to work on structure. My therapist and I discussed this. I'm dependent on others right now, but that will change. The positive is that I have this journal as an outlet. I also exercise to keep a healthy state of mind. Some people might say the usual, "You don't need to work out!! Look at you!" But again, it's not about my image. Fact is, exercise is healthy. Venting is healthy. Everything else that I am working on for my well being...is healthy.